Well yesterday my step-brother and his wife were blessed with their first child, a daughter. Don't get me wrong, I am so very happy from them. Lately it just seems that because I want a girl and can't have one, everyone around me is having one. It's really hard not to feel as if God is rubbing it in my face. Kinda like hahahahahaha see what I can give to others, but what I wont give to you. I know that God isn't doing that. I am just feeling a little down right now. I thought that I had gotten off of this emotional roller coaster ride finally. That I had accepted the obvious, there is never going to be another baby in my arms that I gave birth to. Darn biological clock is ticking hard it seems lately.
On a good note, this past month I didn't have to go to the doctor for a jump start on my period. It started on it's own and was normal (for once). Praise the Lord for that!
