Male Infertility Doctor Follow Up Appointment

DH had his 3 month follow up with the male infertility doctor. His Testosterone levels were 160 when they tested him and now with the Clomid it's in the 430's range (that is where we need it and want it to be at ... while 160 is still considered in the normal range, it's at the very low end of the it). He has to go in in about 14 days to have a count done, praying that this will also show a marked improvement. We also found out that as long as he doesn't get any adverse side effects from the Clomid, he can stay on it as long as needed. We were very concerned about synthetic testosterone treatments due to the side effects but more importantly the effects it could have on Lil' Man being male and around it.
I can tell a difference in DH's sex drive, he is more apt to want it and get frustrated if he doesn't get it when in the mood. While most women would be upset with this, not me! I am loving it! My DH has been pretty A-sexual since the beginning. He could pretty much not get it and be okay. As a woman with PCOS (for those who may not know this fact: Women with PCOS tend to have a much higher sex drive) I pretty much want it all the time. So for me this news about his Testosterone levels being over the 300 that my infertility specialist wants him at and his newly "found" interest makes me a very happy girl. Finally, things seem to be going in the right direction (at least where he is concerned)....now, if I just knew for sure if this Femara was working or not. 

Happy yet sad, content yet uncontent

Well yesterday my step-brother and his wife were blessed with their first child,  a daughter. Don't get me wrong, I am so very happy from them. Lately it just seems that because I want a girl and can't have one, everyone around me is having one. It's really hard not to feel as if God is rubbing it in my face. Kinda like hahahahahaha see what I can give to others, but what I wont give to you. I know that God isn't doing that. I am just feeling a little down right now. I thought that I had gotten off of this emotional roller coaster ride finally. That I had accepted the obvious, there is never going to be another baby in my arms that I gave birth to. Darn biological clock is ticking hard it seems lately.
On a good note, this past month I didn't have to go to the doctor for a jump start on my period. It started on it's own and was normal (for once). Praise the Lord for that!