Last Month

This is the last month for us with the Clomid treatments. I really am upset with our OB/GYN. I feel like she wasted our time (precious and valuable it was too), this past year. She didn't listen to me when I told her that the progesterone pills weren't working and that I needed the shot instead. I told her this at least 3 times but oh no, this was the new way of doing things and it was the only way we were going to do it....according to her. I was on those stupid pills 3 different times and do you think that things ever really got into to sinc with my body? No! So in Aug, I mention this issue to my Endocrinologist, who in my presence emails my OB/GYN about this and low behold in Sept when I see her the OB/GYN is like well the next time you need a shot, you just tell me and I will make sure you get one. GRRRRRRRR!!!!!! I was so mad, I wanted to scream at her. Then she has the audacity to tell me that I was very emotional the last time I saw here.....hmmmmm, could it have been that my body was so messed up hormonally from being on all those meds (Progesterone every 6 to 7 weeks and then a treatment of Clomid about 15 days after that). Give me a break! When you aren't able to get PG like just about every other woman on the face of the Earth, you are already a little bit of an emotional wreck.....then add to it treatments, doctor appointments and schedules for trying to get PG that may or may not work....of course you are going to be a little high strung and emotional, don't you think? At this point I want nothing more than for this to work or I might just cry for months and cause a flood in my home. It also doesn't help that people are turning up all around me pregnant or just having been blessed with a new baby. I just keep telling myself stay strong, don't wear your feelings on your sleeve and trust in God, He will get you through this.