Why

Went into see my GYNO today. Grrr! We discussed what the infertility specialist found and said (she said that I would need to have regular progestrone treatments until menopause...that I needed to have a cycle monthly or we would be back where we were a few weeks ago)...my GYNO doesn't agree. She says oh you only need to have a cycle once every 3 months. She has always been unwilling to give a progestrone shot...she is into the "new" way of doing things. Well, sometimes the new way doesn't work for everyone. I can testify for sure to that now. My body does better with progestrone shots not pills. It's what it is use to. So this concerns me, what am I going to do when I am done seeing the specialist. I need a doctor who is going to do what needs to be done on a monthly basis. Personally, I feel that the specialist is the one to listen to and know about these conditions more than the GYNO. I feel my GYNO has no idea of what PCOS really entails or is. I think I might be needing to find a new GYNO in the future.

Results Are In

Well...they say that the test results came back showing no cancer. We can proceed with the fertility treatments next month. Talk about relieved. Relieved that there is no Cancer. What a ugly word. I can say that this experience has brought what others go through when they hear those words to light...I can and will never go through this life and just think "that poor soul". No, I will actually be able to have an idea of what they are going through...though no trip in this life is the same...just like no two people are alike.

Biopsy Day

Well, here we are the "big" day.....the day of the Biopsy. Had to wait for my "friend" to visit so that they could go in and take samples of the uterine wall. Now, we sit and wait for the test results. What fun! Waiting! Praying! It's all in God's hands now!

Decided

Well, after much thought, prayer and guidance from God, we have decided to finally go see a Infertility Specialist. We have always said that we would go as far as shots on the journey down this road that infertility has taken us. We finally got into to see her today. After an initial interview, they examined me. She said that part of the reason that the Clomid might not have worked this past year was because I probably built up a resistance to it. They also found that I have a thick uterine wall, this is a common problem with PCOS. They say it can be something called Endometrial Hyperplasia. This can mean that there might be Cancer. They want to do a biopsy. There are two words that I had hoped that I would never say in my life, not just for me but for anyone that I love. Unfortuantly, I have already had to experience saying those words a few times for those that I love and care about. Yes, I am scared...scared for Edward. I want to be here for my boy, to watch him grow up to be the man God intended him to be. He is my miracle, my gift from God. I now feel that maybe God was laying this on our hearts, to see an infertility specialist not to just try to get pregnant but so that someone would find this. It's not something that my GYNO would have found during a normal yearly visit. It wouldn't have shown up in a pap. Scarey, huh? For now though before they can do the biopsy, they have to get my "friend" to come and visit. So it is a Progestrone shot for me.