Decided

Well, after much thought, prayer and guidance from God, we have decided to finally go see a Infertility Specialist. We have always said that we would go as far as shots on the journey down this road that infertility has taken us. We finally got into to see her today. After an initial interview, they examined me. She said that part of the reason that the Clomid might not have worked this past year was because I probably built up a resistance to it. They also found that I have a thick uterine wall, this is a common problem with PCOS. They say it can be something called Endometrial Hyperplasia. This can mean that there might be Cancer. They want to do a biopsy. There are two words that I had hoped that I would never say in my life, not just for me but for anyone that I love. Unfortuantly, I have already had to experience saying those words a few times for those that I love and care about. Yes, I am scared...scared for Edward. I want to be here for my boy, to watch him grow up to be the man God intended him to be. He is my miracle, my gift from God. I now feel that maybe God was laying this on our hearts, to see an infertility specialist not to just try to get pregnant but so that someone would find this. It's not something that my GYNO would have found during a normal yearly visit. It wouldn't have shown up in a pap. Scarey, huh? For now though before they can do the biopsy, they have to get my "friend" to come and visit. So it is a Progestrone shot for me.